Really should know better. It’s always the same but I do it every time (what with accidents and operations I’ve been hospitalised often enough!). I come out after the enforced rest, feeling better and raring to go. All advice to take things slowly is ignored. But I’m fine. There are things to do!
The result never varies. I run myself into the ground, ending up worse than I was before. This is in no way seeking sympathy but more by way of explanation and apology. I don’t see myself as a victim, just a clumsy bugger who ends up in A and E rather a lot.
Bipolars have two settings – full on and stop. Unfortunately, screaming around at “full on” makes me exhausted and the result is I turn in to a “nasty piece of work”, get very snappy, make bad judgement-calls and that is why I’ve taken a break from social media for a while. I’ve already caused upset and am avoiding doing it again. I’d really like to apologise but that avenue is closed to me. The best I can do is keep out of the way, wait til my balance is restored and hope that those I’ve hurt see this post and forgive me.
Thanks to all who have emailed me and yes, I’ll come out of retirement once I’m not a danger to those around me. In the meanwhile, Bro will post occasional messages if he feels like it or anything funny happens (like me falling under a bus, for example)