He’s not a demon…he’s a pesky neighbour!

Many of you will remember the “He is not the Messiah” scene from Monty Python’s “Life of Brian” but as it has “adult-only” content and I don’t want to offend I’m not including it. If you want to watch it (again) you can see it here.

During many forms of treatment for my manic-depression I’ve been taught to give the enemy a name and character, visualise it and make friends. Sorry, no can do. The best I can come up with is laughing at him. My form is Cylcothemic Bipolar so the mood swings come and go very rapidly and last only days not weeks or months. In one way I’m lucky. I should hate to be on a depressive phase for months. Tried that before and it wasn’t fun. Not playing again.

So, although I sometimes refer to him as “the Demon” that is a bit too respectful. My books are peopled with demons and he isn’t one of those. I choose to see him as that irritating neighbour who calls around at all times of the day and night, complains endlessly and sometimes makes me either very angry or leaves me in tears. He can, in fact, do me little favours. When I’m pushing myself too hard he rings the doorbell and distracts me from work I shouldn’t be doing. As he is the sort who “always knows best” he can force me into bed to rest. While I hate to admit it, that really IS the best answer sometimes.

While not a friend, he is just someone I have to live with. Moving away isn’t an option.

 


7 thoughts on “He’s not a demon…he’s a pesky neighbour!

  1. Good piece, Ailsa. The problem with my husband is that he was always in complete denial and refused to take any medication or preventive help. Unfortunately, his cycles are long, sometimes months long. Now he has a caregiver since breaking his hip, and she makes sure he stays on his medication and eats properly. I’m glad to hear you’re doing okay and are in control.

  2. It’s sometimes very difficult to put a cheery smile on for the world when he inside says you don’t even deserve to be here. The best I can do is pretend I’m someone else when that happens or refuse to see him standing near me.It’s lucky that it’s all centered on me and I feel no rage towards anyone else.
    xxx Huge Hugs xxx

  3. I’m always delighted to hear from others who have or live with someone who has similar problems to mine. We all deal with them in our own ways. Denial can be fatal, Suzanne, so I’m pleased he is being looked after. David – he makes me so angry sometimes that I end up lashing out at others and then hate myself for it. This is why I start laughing now – soon as he pops his head around the door I find something comical about him…or me!

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