… not retreat.
Today I’ve had to do something quite unusual, take a hard look at my situation and think about it sensibly.
I’m not in the best of health. A stroke caused by someone running into the side of my car followed by a near-fatal road accident all within a year have left their marks on me. The three-week coma I was in after being air-lifted to hospital for a life-saving operation has left me with CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) which may be permanent or will, at best, be intermittent.
I keep trying to behave as if I’m the same as I was a few years ago, coming up with more ideas on how to spend my dwindling energies. Like a kid in a toy shop, I grab inspiration and go “Yes! I’ll do that!” This can’t continue. I need to finish the Alchemy series. I have promised to write my comic memoirs “Knitting With Eels” and even thought about doing them in French. I now contribute a weekly article to two magazines. I’d like to write more of Cameron’s Jack and Rory books. This blog has become quite successful and I want to keep it going.
Decision time – acknowledge your limitations and act accordingly. (Again, this is very rare. I am superwoman, I don’t have limitations… well, not up til now.)
Having thought this out all by my little self, I sat down with Badger over a cup of tea out in the back garden and we had a chat about it. He is very good, despite sometimes being a bit of a bossy-boots and was relieved that I’d come to this decision myself.
As I am finding it hard enough to write in English with my damaged head, I can forget writing in French for the foreseeable future. (It’s one thing speaking colloquial French fluently and quite another, much harder job, to write it.) So, we shelve the idea of memoirs in French. Jack and Rory will probably be left alone unless I recover enough to take on more work.
I will have to discipline myself to write for a certain time per day and get my WIPs finished. If I build rest periods around my writing, I can manage. I need to limit the amount of time I spend on social media, although I adore my on-line friends. The blog and magazine articles count as publicity as well as being very enjoyable, so I will continue those.
What is needed here is self-discipline (who, ME?) and accepting that….
I am not Superwoman and probably never was. But my dog loves me.