… is also a beginning. I’ve lived by this all my life, it’s part of the pagan creed and just common sense. When something stops, something else starts because Nature abhors a vacuum.
This has all come home to me in many ways recently. Facing up to Badger’s death has been a surprisingly positive experience for both of us. We decided that we’d just make the best of every day given to us and enjoy. Hence his decision to go on a Farewell Tour to say goodbye to places he’s liked. We’re having more fun than we have in years.
I don’t know what the future holds for me post-Badger but I do know that there will be a future which is an improvement on imagining following him closely behind. Being a full-time carer is a change and I have to keep remembering to ask him to do things too – he isn’t incapacitated yet.
Having not written anything for ages due to my own health problems, I suddenly decided to write again. It is good therapy for me to have something selfish to do. Perhaps there is also a new beginning for me as a writer, who knows?
Signs keep coming to me and little spirit messages pop up. They are very reassuring.